Wednesday, November 29, 2006

transience...

Monday, November 27, 2006

...


Narcissus blooming
It's the wrong time of the year
Sometimes life's like that

harmonium...




Although it's a lovely instrument with a very sweet tone, I need to unload this. It belongs to a time and space in my life that I no longer inhabit. Quite frankly, the money potentially garnered from its sale would be better served towards the purchase of a new digital camera.

And what time and space do I now inhabit? Much of the time, I'm just not sure. But I've come to the conclusion that it's better to be unsure and uncertain and accept such feelings, than be less than genuine with rigid beliefs.

Friday, November 24, 2006

Crescent moon...


, originally uploaded by aikitherese.

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

neither here nor there...



Monday, November 20, 2006

Forest floor...


Leaves falling like tears
The vibrance of summer passed
Waiting for the spring

Sunday, November 19, 2006

Sunday...


More than a year ago. I left this film without processing for a long time...I didn't even remember what was on it. Funny to find this... How have I changed in this time? What do I know now that I didn't know then?

Friday, November 17, 2006

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Three dots...used often by me, when there are no words to fill in that space. At the same time, that space is very full...full of meaning, of emotion.

A picture of beauty...a picture of heartache...contained within the same frame. A sweet sadness... Life is what it is...and it's most frequently everything, all rolled together...

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

About a boy...

Tea in the garden...

Sunday, November 12, 2006

Japanese Tea Garden...


Saturday, November 11, 2006

No one ever told me...


...that life could feel so complicated. Who knew that I could go through so many mental and emotional gymnastics, while totally distancing myself from the moment? I never imagined that all my reading and knowledge could prove so ineffective against my ingrained tendencies and conditioned responses to life... Bleh...

Crisis...artistic, emotional, menopausal (yeah, that fits in there too)... Somehow, writing about it helps... Perhaps those letters and words emerging on a screen (or paper even) make the thoughts more tangible. Perhaps in forming that tangible base, the parts that are more ethereal, slippery, lacking true substance, are seen for what they are...just that. Maybe I'm just a little mixed up right now...

I have a hard time, even in the midst of crisis, especially when presenting to, well, whomever might actually read this...to end on a sour note. The truth is, I do feel that things will be...OK...that life is just what it is (even while I sometimes squirm at letting it be that way, and put up a great internal struggle). There is too much beauty, compassion and love in the world, to see it otherwise.

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Friday, November 10, 2006

At the gallery...


My gallery sitting turn was yesterday afternoon. I managed to get my negatives all labeled and sorted...I guess those hours are a good time to do things I normally put off (as long as I can carry those things around with me!).

Since I figured I'd be working on other things, I didn't bring any of my cameras with me (gasp!!). But the light as I was leaving (which was actually sunlight reflected back into our space from the office building across the street) was so gorgeous, I had to snap a couple withe my phone cam.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Automatic Joy and Sorrow


The view of interdependence makes for a great openness of mind. In general, instead of realizing that what we experience arises from a complicated network of causes, we tend to attribute happiness or sadness, for example, to single, individual sources. But if this were so, as soon as we came into contact with what we consider to be good, we would automatically be happy, and conversely, in the case of bad things, invariably sad. The causes of joy and sorrow would be easy to identify and target. It would all be very simple, and there would be good reason for our anger and attachment. When, on the other hand, we consider that everything we experience results from a complex interplay of causes and conditions, we find that there is no single thing to desire or resent, and it is more difficult for the afflictions of attachment or anger to arise. In this way, the view of interdependence makes our mind more relaxed and open.


--The Dalai Lama, A Flash of Lightening in the Dark of Night

Monday, November 06, 2006

Persimmon leaf...


, originally uploaded by aikitherese.

Though the temps still seem to be staying moderate...a little cooler, then a little warmer...the trees are definitely in their autumn dress.

It's been a busy, fast year. Now seems the time to slow down and take stock...maybe nest a little.

A poignant season, this, which never fails to leave me a little melancholy, yet deeply happy as well...

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Holga, autumn


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, originally uploaded by aikitherese.

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, originally uploaded by aikitherese.

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, originally uploaded by aikitherese.

Friday, November 03, 2006

Leaves...


Halloween...