Sunday, December 31, 2006

A new year approaches...


Probably one of the most encouraging and comforting quotes I've read in a while:

The Daily Dharma

December 30, 2006

Being a Buddhist

Have confidence in your own spiritual potentiality, your ability to find your own unique way. Learn from others certainly and use what you find useful, but also learn to trust your own inner wisdom. Have courage. Be awake and aware. Remember too that Buddhism is not about being a Buddhist; that is, obtaining a new identity tag. Nor is it about collecting head-knowledge, practices and techniques. It is ultimately about letting go of all forms and concepts and becoming free.


--John Snelling, Elements of Buddhism

Friday, December 29, 2006

Time passes...


I noticed this morning that not only is my hair getting longer but the ranks of gray strands seem to be steadily increasing. Maybe it's because I'm too tired to fight it...but it's really okay with me. In fact, I kind of like it. There's a random chaos to my hair color at this point in my life, which seems to echo the changes going on inside. More than that, though, I like to think the mixture is a representation of my own uniqueness, my growing into myself as I age...becoming not only the person I always wanted to be, but exactly who I am. If that makes sense at all....

Thursday, December 28, 2006

Christmastime...


As quickly as it seemed to arrive...it passed...

It was kind of different this year...odd in a way...but oh well, sometimes things just are.

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Clearing out...


...making room for the New Year...

I can feel it already, the urge to re-dedicate myself to worthwhile intentions and let go of energy sappers (whatever form they may take). This time of year brings a palpable energy quality to the idea of starting fresh. I'm very much looking forward to 2007.

Monday, December 25, 2006

Merry Christmas...


Now we can relax...*sigh*

Julian's gift to me...a very cool book on Holga photography. What could be more perfect?

Happy holidays everyone...

Sunday, December 24, 2006

Wishes...


May we all experience the love, joy and warmth of the season in these holidays. And may we see only good things in the new year!!

I have to get busy...in fact I should be starting on dough and soup and other things right now. Just taking a moment to note and send out good vibes of the season.

Happy holidays to all!!

Saturday, December 23, 2006

Happy...

Friday, December 22, 2006

Happy Holidays...


The next few days will see a flurry of activity. Final shopping/wrapping, cleaning, and food preparation for the main Christmas meal, which for us is Christmas eve. It finally feels like there's a little momentum at work now, so for that I'm grateful!

It's been a very significant year in our household. Kids into college, high school, my work out in the public, my first trip by myself to a place I didn't know (granted to visit folks I know) and personal observation of all the changes going on internally as well (both physiologically and psychologically). All that being said, after the holidays are past, I'll be ready for at least a little downtime. And by downtime, I mean focused downtime...not the excuse for downtime I've been known to give myself!

So...if you don't see anything here for a few days...you will eventually. Have a wonderful and blessed holiday season...may your days and nights be filled with warmth, light and love...

Thursday, December 21, 2006

Winter Solstice...


On this, the darkest day of the year, I offer a memory and a vision of the light and warmth that will come again. Everything changes...back and forth and back and forth...that seems to be the only constant.

Wishing you all a wonderful Solstice...may yours be filled with warmth and light, whatever the source...

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

This morning...


Alone...

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Frost...


Probably the closest thing we get to snow in the bay area.

Monday, December 18, 2006

Almost winter...


I had wanted to upload this image to my new flickr photostream. After two tries and no go (sometimes that happens there), I decided to reflect a bit about whether I actuallly wanted it there...

Well, yes, I wanted it there because I knew it would get attention. I also knew that if it drew folks to the photostream, they also might look at the other images (which, imo, are typically less well received in online format than in physical reality). It didn't take long to realize I was falling into the same trap I had before...posting for views instead of for my intent, which is to represent the body of work as genuinely as I can.

Yeah, it's making more out the situation than I should, I suppose. There is little in life I do, however, without reflection on motivation, intent and the energy that surrounds the action. I'm not 100% about it, but for the most part I make daily efforts at mindfulness and introspection, so...

Here is that picture...in all its glory...I happen to really like it.

Sunday, December 17, 2006

Sunday...

Well, Christmas Eve is only one week away...and I've done next to nothing with regard to preparation!! I HAVE gotten the tree up...and a few decorations...a couple batches of cookies made...but that feels like a drop in the bucket. Add to that I've just gotten word of another possible venue for my work, so I'm already trying to figure out how to get my foot in the door there. Fortunately, rank testing in aikido is postponed until March, so that's a help.

Still...despite the self imposed (or culturally imposed) pressure of the season, I'm doing okay...feeling pretty good about things in general. I've much to be thankful for. It's been a good year.



Saturday, December 16, 2006

Aw, nuts...


Well, really, I'm so pleased with the close up filters I'm using with the Holga. It combines that wonderful, detailed view of things I love so well, with the out of focus edges and blurring unique to this camera.

Another gray and cold day. It was even a little numbing to be out in the park for aikido practice this morning (but practice always ends up being a plus, so I didn't mind). I don't know that it will rain for sure...but there's a chance. A good day for more indoor activities...and there are plenty tasks to work on.

Friday, December 15, 2006

Winter sun...


Finally we're getting a little today, after about three days of clouds, rain and fog. Not that I minded the gray too much, and I definitely enjoyed the rain, but I could use the rays at this point.

The new photostream is coming together. It's more cohesive and consistent artistically than my original stream. In some ways it seems long overdue, but the truth is I wasn't quite sure how to go about it before.

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Sax Quintet...Christmas song

'Tis the season...

December not only brings the celebrations of the holidays, but also awareness of the year's end and a certain introspective mindset. Evaluating the past twelve months I can see so many things that I'm grateful for and very little for which I feel regret. I consider that a real blessing.

Even the recent glitch with my flickr photostream...at the time seemingly catastrophic...has opened up a new space for me to move into. I only wish that in the moment of crisis I could see a little beyond and not become so emotionally charged. Then again, without those strong feelings and energy, perhaps the eruption of new ideas wouldn't take place. Once again...it's all good.

So...we move on into the Christmas season. The decorating is getting done...piecemeal. Cookies are baked and plans are being made for the holiday meals. I'm not so into it as I once was...although it's more a matter of every year learning to let go of the things that are less than necessary and relax a little into the warmth and light.

And really, that's what it's all about...the warmth and light and love. That sounds really corny, but I've always felt the truth in this. There is a feeling in the heart chakra I experience at this time of year, that is different than at any other. The sharing and love are so palpable that at times it's almost overwhelming...

I wish everyone a very wonderful and blessed season, whatever tradition you follow.

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Happy Holidays...


Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Rainy December day...

I spent the morning here, moving my operations from the little greenhouse room (as we call it), to the living room where it's warmer today, both in temperature and ambiance. Some concerns I was having over the holidays eased up as I ordered a few online gifts. I had hoped to send out homemade parcels for Christmas, but being that time is marching forward at a much faster pace than I am, this makes me feel better about getting a few things out in time.

The images below are a couple I was reviewing in my warm and comfy digs this morning as well. The close up filters work remarkably well with the Holga and when the light is just right, I'm so loving the expression of the winter garden with this combination. Almost all the leaves are gone now, yet a few narcissus are making an early appearance. Garden/nature and Holga quality work very, very well together in my opinion.

And art seems to lead to life (or maybe they're one in the same).... As the season rapidly moves on and the year comes to an end, introspective thoughts seem to be the norm. It's been a good year, a busy one, one with some rather profound growth experiences. One of these days I'll have a little more patience to express my thoughts on these matters...mainly because I know very well they're not unique to me...but also because it helps me work through the process. Perhaps one of the really startling realizations that comes when sifting through all the experience, is how in the end I am not as separate as I might think... I'll leave it at that for today....


Sunday, December 10, 2006

San Francisco bay sunset...

surrender...


I'm tired...and a bit overwhelmed.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

light


, originally uploaded by aikitherese.

Monday, December 04, 2006

Brownie Hawkeye Flash...


The camera and film used to create this image are both nearly half century old. I wonder if fifty years from now, someone will be able to use a 2006 digital camera and memory card to create an image...

Film is still standing the test of time...at least in the art world.

A window to winter, a time to pull in and introspect. What has the year offered? What have I offered the year? How to move through the difficulties, the heartache...how to let go and not cling to the joy, but appreciate the appearance it makes from time to time?

Saturday, December 02, 2006

evening...